Straight from the horses mouth

So I am going on tour!

No chuck Norris did not need a crew to go on tour with.

I am going on tour with David Fing Copperfield.

This was never in my wildest dreams. I never thought, I never. Oh my god have I blown my brains out and this is what purgatory is like?

I am excited I am thrilled. My first tour!!!!!!!!! I know that there is lots and lots of work to be done. I am talking about 7 am till 2 am most days and on the bus the others. I would never have imagined.

But underneath all that exterior is the true me. I am heartbroken and scared. The little girl in me shivers in the darkest depths of my core crying with fear of the unknown. I know I will push myself and I will go with eyes ears and mind wide open but I still will be stand offish. This is scary to me as most first tries are. I am scared that I won’t do a good enough job. I am scared I am not going to work hard enough. I am scared of a lot things but I have to push that aside and go along with the ride.

I am heart broken that my time in Maryland was short lived. I will be back no doubt but will miss it. My time with Paul was short and will miss our anime nights and witty comments. I just started to get to know you and now I have to say goodbye.  I know this is not forever but it is still sad. I am going to miss the bad porn/ movie night with Laura and Loren (something we did in high school). There are so many things I am going to miss.

I almost feel that this is not fair that I am being dealt a hand that is a win win with options. I could either go to Japan or to an expense paid trip across Europe. How the hell do you chose on something like that. It was a hard decision but a good one.

I am going to miss every one here in Maryland. I am sorry it was so short.